omg. i just watched the last episode of the 9'o clock show. honestly, didn't expect to go after this serial. thought it was just some random silly show. but the fact that taypinghui died, just killed my mood. haha. it was devastating to watch a handsome guy die on big screen! but ahh, this show does bring us to many lessons in life, like how we can never escape our own conscience. & it shows the extent to which power has influenced people to do things beyond their usual self. gosh. their whole family practically ceased to exist at the end. & most importantly, what people are willing to give up, for love. it's amazing yet scary. we'll never know if we will ever give up our lives for someone else because we love them. goodness. i think it's SO BRAVE to sacrifice your life for the one you love, then give that someone you love, another lover through your donation of some organ at your deathbed. tmd. so annoyingly sad. ):
anyway, i am so glad i can blog my views again. haha.
school today was... alright. weather is shiok. haha. ran this morning though walked 2 rounds. slacking coz no one runs anymore! TSK.
& i like how sg is sooooo small(:
i guess leadership positions, esp when you are a girl, isn't easy to handle. this is true when you really will be affected by others' views.it's really not easy to brush these views aside, i think. o maybe girls are a lil more sensitive la. it's hard, but hang in there! ha. different people work differently, & thus have different attitudes la. sighs. my bad, i feel. criticised for it by some fella whom i confided in. TSK.i'm gonna try solve it. blehh. i dont wanna do it alone but ahh well, val, no choice dude. haha.
feel so reflective. having some shit headache now. lol.
i wanna cut my hair! OMG. i wanna have curls or maybe return my fringe, or chop it all short (but doubt so), or let's shave it! HAHA.
happy birthday tankaimin! HAHA.
yesterday we woke up early & made our way to that crazy fella's house. we had some sumptuous breakfast & everything was just plain fun! haha. just pat cldn't make it. a pity, but nvm la. haha. we took neoprints, sat around to talk & camwhore-d. haha. usual stuff. it's so nice just talking to them. life w them around is just so good. haha. but well... haha. we'll just meet up more often ba. haha.
haha. tried out some effects on photobucket. LOL.
yoghurt:)
today went to have dimsum n the morning w my family. haha. then walked around a lil before i went home to sleep. haha. the weather is beautiful though it's raining so much. haha. i didn't get to eat durian!!! i should get some kakis to go makan durian w me! esp when it's the season now! i heard on tv that this year, the harvest is more than usual, so durians are going cheaper. omg. we HAVE TO eat em! esp sit at the store to eat. more qing2 qu4. haha.
supposed to hav Oscar mini outing today but... cancelled.haha. sadded. nvm. another time ba!
oh yays! i found a way to connect to the internet already! :D :D:D woohoo. so i guess... haha. it's good la. & YOU, don't worry about the things i blog about. haha. it won't be that bad okay!
& i think it's so scary to blog in soooo much detail eh? lol. i won't. haha. so exposing. don't they feel naked? like their privacy is sponged on. ha.
it's been so many days that my comp has crashed. it feels so good to be typing again. alright, but this isn't my computer. i'm at yet another birthday party, family gathering. :D haha. it never gets too boring. it's nice just sitting around, teasing one another, laughing like there's no tomorrow. haha. it's gonna be many months before the next gathering. the kids will be taking their psle, me my darned As. plus lots of shit arnd. haha. go boyy.
haha. first week of school over. still surviving. not well though. results not as pretty as expected. my usual crap. sucks la.
When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
i guess i just have to do just that la. no choice. c'mon.
lol. stabilize is the word. & not everything stabilizes straight away. everything takes time. lol. time heals all wounds i guess. haha. i will never forget though.
anyway, i am glad i found what i was looking for. i would never ask for anything more(: it's more than a friend, definitely.
It's spreading already. & I saw to parts of t. I guess it doesn't hurt to have it like that. I'm learning more each day. For a while yesterday night, I thought I couldn't hold on anymore but I did. Haha.
My laptop is supposed to be fixed!!! But damn. Some silly crap, so yeah. It's like a sad story. Anyway, got my first pay from tuition today. It's quite fast la. & it ain't as tough as I thought. it's tougher to just keep awake. LOL. First week is almost coming to an end! Fix my comp sooonnnnn. Typing here sucks big time. Haha.
I feel as if I misplaced my trust. Especially when you behave like that the moment we met. Ha. You nver know how it feels.
Haha. Long time since anyone has done so much.
Last day of fun already!!! Just a few more days... To prelims. Hahaha! It's been tiring to me unable to sleep. I wish we had exams like the other jcs.things would have been different.
Trying to get used to typing on my itouch. Sighs... Have been complaining of ankle pains, they hurt as much as sprains but are not sprains. Anyway, I am starting to think I am irresponsible. For many reasons difficult to explain. & more and more of the rest of the world is coming to know. So we should just let them know. Never easy to hide anything. Will just make things worse the more we try to hide. Haha. & I am starting to get tired of people always trying to come up with lies to deceive me. They never know how much it hurts to be hidden in the dark, believing something that is untrue. So here goes the 28 days!!! Just in the swipe of a toilet paper! Byebye holidays:(
satisfied with everything that has happened, and has not happened. i am glad for the increasing heart to heart talks i have had with many of my girl friends this holiday. haven't done much that is productive, but really feels like this holidays have been a dream. have been eating most of my days away... buffets and bingeings. HAH.
computer has been crashing occasionally, some sign that i shouldn't come here so often. but once i manage to get on, hahaha! gone liao.
i guess things are back to normal, now that school is starting. mann... i really hope it will be.
& i found out how i actually am better at words that need not be said, like texting & msn-ing or blogging. sighs. sad life. it's like living in some virtual world, rather than the real world. :(((
alright, that's all for now. i wish ac had exams after holidays, so i would have been studying instead. GRRR...
Typing not on my computer, bcos it crashed. What crap right. I am hoping school doesn't have a break for another week but ahhh... Part of me wants it.. Gawd. There's so much more that is incomplete.:( grrr... You'll never get how frustrating this is. A levels are sooooo near. Ha. And so is nationals. Blehh... I know what to expect. Yes I am meddlesome, irritating and what not. Of course, it's what we are here for... Isn't it? Sighs. I am learning to accept their judgements of me. LOL.times are changing uh... Things are not as simple and easy now. I feel shot. In the back without any preparation at all. And yeah... Apparently I cannot access lms. So no way to read the in announcement. Sighs. I m dreading the rest of the week, because it is evidence of how fast things have gone... :((((( I don't wanna face the things I have been hiding from since tht day we argued. I think love results in a lot of unneccessary complications... Especially when one tries too hard to protect it. Or when one doesn't have enough courage to own up to it. You should know... Hope things would change when I see you again.
thank you for sharing such songs with me(: really appreciate it. haha.
anyway, i think that cakes really do wonders for me mann. i was stunned by the instant joy i experienced when i bit into that amazing tasting piece of yoghurt flavoured cake that my mum brought home. haha. yum yum. recently have been craving fr em also la.. so. just nice! have been running a lil more recently. must be too much of staying at home & stuff la.
met up with dayanna today. she spends like money is free. HAHA. we talked a lot la. she's busy though she's on holiday mann. she's coming back only next year after she leaves this time, but thankfully, not so soon. haha.
& my comp sucks. it's really gonna crash soon. i've been spending so much time on the scanning of viruses. tsk tsk. sometimes the browser pages cant even open. luckily that's such a thing called the itouch at home. HAHA. or i will just die & not be able to check mails.
it's been 2 days! good progress! :D
and ahhh... duty tomorrow. heard it's no welfare n shit boring. haha. see how la.. it's how we choose to see it, spend it & stuff. i have been 'resting' from sjab fr a week alrdy!
deviations
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time tells nothing
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Bring me up
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